I strive so long to reach you,
beat my breast and throw my body down
before the Presence on the altar
and I pray “Jesus, I adore you,”
pray “Father, grant me grace”
(meaning “give me more”
because what you have given in abundance
is evidently not enough.)
I spend many words and moments
trying to reach you,
trying every trick I know.
You wait with a stillness
and a quiet loving
in my noisy and indomitable longing
until I rest,
rest,
rest
in your nunc eternitas.
This is day 15 of LABIA MUNDA, a series of forty poems during the forty days of Lent.